8 Simple Ways To Lose Your Blubber

Let's face it, we all want to look good in our six-packs ( if not eight); or just simply looking fit and lean. Plus, it seems to me that doing things the 'healthier' way is becoming a trend. Well, for once, a 'good' trend. Nonetheless, us Malaysians being Malaysians.. the amount of temptations that we face every single day can be quite an obstacle. Unless you have crazy amount of self-control (which I am still working on :P). 

I guess I have mentioned in my previous post on the GM Diet, that I've gained quite an amount of unnecessary pounds ; and I'm on a quest to lose them all. Yes, ALL! I do notice the 'urgency' that we tend to have when it comes to losing your weight/fats. You wouldn't believe the amount of queries I got from my GM DIET, it's becoming a trend! Everyone wants to lose weight fast, and the easy way. Not saying that the diet was bad, but for me personally, it was more like a detox to cleanse my system. Of course, losing the 3kgs was a bonus, and it keeps me motivated. If you immediately get back on your regular meals right after your 5th day of the diet, most likely you'll gain it all back. So, what's the point? 

Losing fats also depend on your current fitness status. For instance, you are already quite lean with slight visibility of abs; so to work towards the packs wouldn't be too difficult for you. In contrast, if you have a belly and carry extra pounds.. you'll probably have to first work on losing your fats and then work towards obtaining the abdominal muscles. It is all a process; take the right route, not the short-cut;  remember this : "the faster you lose, the faster you gain". Everything in moderation is the best! So, being my curious self.. I read up on quite a couple of reviews, and fitness articles on 'how to lose your fats'. Some can be quite tricky and seem almost impossible to achieve; so, I've come up with 8 most doable ways to lose your fats. 

Afterall, who wouldn't want to look like THIS? 

That's not me BTW. 

1) Cardio Before Breakfast 

According to most articles, when you do cardio on an empty stomach .. your body is more apt to burn fat as its primary source of energy since glycogen stores are depleted from eight hours of fasting the night before. You might have to sacrifice waking up 30-45 minutes earlier than usual, but hey .. the fat-burning perks are definitely worth it! 

Do I Do It? : Hell yes! I'm not usually a morning person ( by that, I mean I wake up at like... 12pm most of the time). But, I woke up at 9am today for gym. No regrets! My secret to waking up early in the morning : "The breakfast Maggy, wake up for your BIG BREAKFASTT!". Do whatever works for you. 

2) Take A Cup, or Two of Coffee 

"Caffeine is found in most fat-burning supplements since it inhibits the storage of body fat and burns EXTRA fat during exercise". Try drinking a large cup of coffee before your cardio exercises ; but make sure it's BLACK. No sugar or cream because the extra calories will only disrupt your fat-burning efforts. According to a study, they found that caffeine and carnitine taken before a cycling workout increased fat-burning and endurance. Load up on your coffee beans! ;) 

Do I Do It? : Though I'm not the biggest fan of coffee, I tried taking black coffee first thing first in the morning. Kinda helps but of course, visible results can only be seen in the long run. But if you dislike coffee, try opt for tea instead! I'm pretty sure tea would do the job too. 

3) Do Intervals 

Any workout is better than not working out. Similarly, any cardio is better than none. Based on most studies/researches, doing intervals have been shown to burn more fat than cardio sessions done at a constant slow-to-moderation intensity. If you're going on a treadmill, try going for 20-25minutes at a roughly 1:1 ratio of intense to slow/moderate intervals (Eg, sprint for a minute, walk for a minute and repeat the cycle).  

Do I Do It? : Honestly? I hate the treadmill. But, I guess doing intervals is much more fun as compared to running/jogging at a constant speed for 30 minutes! Yay to intervals! 

4) Lift, and Lift Heavy! 

Dump that mindset of "I'm worried I'll get buff if I lift weights" or "Heavy weight-lifting are only for the men!". Well, just look at that chick! Say whuttt!! Weight liftings are great way to burn of those fats as compared to cardio exercises. In fact, they allow a constant 'fat-burning' process while cardios are merely burning your fats temporarily. I remember my Trainer once told me that; if you do weights, you are still 'burning' for the next 24hours while running.. you're only burning WHILE you're are running. Hmm, let me explain better. In other words, with weight lifting you gain muscles and hence higher metabolism (which is good for keeping your body fit and lean in the long run) while with cardio/running, you're mostly only burning fats, not so much building muscles. 

Simple equation,

MUSCLES = HIGH METABOLISM = BETTER FAT-BURNING PROCESS 

And to gain muscles, there's only one way. TO LIFT! But do bear in mind that if you do not lift the 'right' way, you might end up hurting yourself. So, start slow and learn to control your strength and add on the weight as you become stronger! ;)

Studies have also showed that training with heavy weight keeps your metabolism higher and your testosterone levels (for men) elevated for longer after the workout, both results in greater fat-burning potential. So ladies, don't be too paranoid about becoming bulking if you lift heavy! Just LIFT! ;) 

Just For Laughs! :P 

Do I Do It? : Yes, I do lift weights. In fact, I'm not focusing so much on my cardio anymore. I do it for my warm ups, to keep my heart rate pumping and to make myself sweat to get goin'! I'm also learning how to do more body weight exercises. If you can handle your own weight, you can handle anything! ;) 

5) Warm Up Before You Lift 

"If you can find just 10-15 extra minutes before you begin your resistance training to do a moderate warm-up on a treadmill, stationary bike or any other form of cardio equipment, you'll get a leg up on fat-burning". Research also shows that you can burn up to 150 additional calories by doing a bried cardio session before training with weights. 

Do I Do It? : Yup, all the time! I will make sure I squeeze in at least 10-20 minutes of cardio before getting onto my resistance/circuit trainings. If I'm not running on treadmills, I would sometimes opt for an hour of Body Combat or RPM classes. 

7) Avoid All Carbs After Dinnertime, in other words ..  

NO SUPPER! 

"What not to do is just as important as what you should do". Try steer clear of all type of carbohydrates after dinner. Simple reason, because those eaten in the late evening are destined to be stored as bodyfat. But if you really need to eat (because starving is no good!), take fruits instead. 

Do I Do It? : I try to avoid supper. In fact, I've not had supper for a long time! But even if I do, I'll make sure it's fruits or perhaps, just a cup of tea. Because most of the time.. we are not hungry, but just craving for something. Your mind is probably tricking you.. So, keep a strong mind. When the mind is strong, the body will follow ;) 

8)  Sleep Is Essential! 

Get at least 7-8 hours of sleep. Missing out on your sleep can also mean missing out on muscle repair that occurs when your body is at rest. If you mess with the repair process, it would mean lesser muscles and subsequently, a slower metabolism! 

Do It Do It? : Haha. My friends call me the 'Sleeping Beauty'. I make sure I get at least 8 hours of sleep every day! Definitely not complaining :P Too much of something good can be bad too; if you oversleep, instead of feeling energized, you might feel even more lethargic. So, try power naps if you have to ; taking naps can be a great way to recharge yourself! 

BONUS:  Drink Lots of Water! 

Need I say more? Water, the most basic form of human life. We can never go wrong with Mother Nature! Plus, if you don't already know.. by weight, the average man is approximately 60% water. Yup, our body content is made up of quite a large percentage of water! 

Drinking plenty of water throughout the day can also boost your metabolic rate and make you less likely to overeat since you'll feel fuller. In contrast, being dehydrated can result in decreased fat-burning! A study from Germany found that when subjects drank about 2 cups of cold water, they increased their metabolic rate by 30% for more than an hour. So, drinking 2 cups of cold water between meals can help keep your metabolism high. So, load up on your H20 and drink regularly. 8 glasses a day, sounds familiar? ;) 

Do I Do It? : Well, with the amount of variety when it comes to beverages ( from fresh juices, coffee, tea , magarita, vodka.. okay, I'm going off track :P), water might not be your FIRST choice when it comes to making a decision. But I personally would prefer just ordering sky juice (aka plain water) whenever  I eat out. And even if I do opt for fruit juices, I will only take it if it's non-sugared. Gotta love your body! 

I hope you find these tips handy. Of course, there are plenty of other useful tips available out there, but I have narrowed down to these 9 most doable tips that can be done on a daily basis. It's okay to start slow. SLOWLY BUT SURELY! If you have any questions, feel free to ask me! And if you want to share your fitness tips/goals with me, do hashtag #movewithmaggy on your Instagram or Twitter; I will be more than happy to respond! :) 

In the meantime, keep going and never give up! Catch you on the FIT-SIDE! 

GM Diet | #movewithmaggy

Before you start bombarding me with questions like "Why are you doing this during Chinese New Year? You nuts?" or " What sort of diet do you even need? You're not even fat! Fat is obese!", allow me to do a little explanation as to why I took up this GM Diet. 

First of all, yes I'm not fat. But neither am I fit (ANYMORE). My circle of close friends and family would have realized the amount of weight I've gained over the past couple of months. You might or might not see the FATTY FRIENDS that I've made, but I know my body very well. And being the fitness/health enthusiast that I self-proclaim.. I do take effort to read up on articles about proper weight loss/ workout regimes. I have been binging on junk food, eating unhealthy portions and even been demotivated to workout because I have completely lost my mojo. I guess we all go through that 'downside' of life, don't we? I would admit that it was probably the break-up that I went through mid last year. (Wait, what?! What break-up? I thought you guys..... ) Ok, stop right there. Yup, we parted ways approximately 7 months ago and the post break-up weight did linger around longer than I thought it would. 

Anyway, back to the main point. So yup, I gained quite a few pounds and I've decided to get back on track because it irks me so bad whenever I scroll through my photo albums, looking at the lean and fit body I once had. I told myself that I need to stop giving excuses and just start doing it. And I'm doing it RIGHT NOW! 

Second question. Why during Chinese New Year? Well, it's pretty simple and I don't think I need to state the obvious. It used to be the festive season that I look forward most to every year, but don't get me wrong.. I STILL DO. It's just that (which brings me back to my first point).. I've gained enough and I don't think I deserve to indulge anymore of these "junk" food. Plus, even if I let myself.. I'll just have to do more work after, which I don't think is a very brilliant idea. So yup, no pain no gain? 

Just a snippet of the temptations that I had to endure, resist and combat throughout my diet routine.. CAN YOU IMAGINE?!  

Brought my bottle of water with me. MAMAK - 0,  MAGGY-1. 

Only took vegetables, and those watermelon balls you see. Yummm!

I'm a sucker for great desserts (cupcakes esp), but once again, DESSERTS - 0, MAGGY - 1. 

From hereon, the detox begins! *hehe*. 

I was introduced to this diet by Natalia and being the amazing friend that she is, she decided to do it WITH ME! The entire world knows that there is absolutely no need for her to go on the diet, but 'going on a diet' was one of the bucket list ; so, kill two birds with one stone perhaps? I get to lose my excess weight while having a great buddy to do it with me! Thanks Nata! :) 

We both did our research prior to starting this diet. Apparently it is the safest and most effective crash diet around. The actual GM Diet is supposedly a 7-day diet, but Nat only did it for 5 because if she continue on any further.. she would probably vanish into thin air. HAHA. So, this diet isn't really recommended if you're technically underweight (based on your BMI). 

GM, the abbreviation of General Motors, and hence The GM Diet. It is a weight loss management plan developed by the General Motors Corporation to help keep their employees stay in shape! (Oh, thank you General Motors!). 

"This diet system involved the consumption of specific foods per day. The GM Diet and it's unique diet plan helps you to reduce up to 10-17 lbs in 7 days. Reducing weight is the primary goal, additionally with reduced weight comes the added benefit of feeling good. Not only does it improve the mental state and attitude of the person following the diet course, it also help you to cleanse & detoxify your body" - GM Diet Overview. 

DAY 1 : ALL YOU CAN EAT FRUITS, EXCEPT FOR BANANAS 

It looks a lot easier than you think it is. "Fruits only? Ahh, I love fruits. I can do that!". That was what I initially thought too, but the fact that you're consuming so much 'sugar' (because any fruits in general, are sweet), you'll get so sick of the 'sweetness' by your third meal intake. Munching on grapes did help. I kept switching between the black (sweet) ones and the green (sour) ones just to play around with my tastebuds. 

By dinner time, we were barely surviving. First day is always the toughest, no kidding! So, we succumbed into some Trail Mix just to tease our tastebuds a little. My first nut and I went "Ahhhh.. this is sooooo gooooood!". HAHA. It would be great if you can get through the first day without 'cheating' like how we did. I'll do better my second round! 

Trail Mix and our fruits palette. 

Dieting is boring, but YOU can make it fun! #justforlaughs 

DAY 2 : ALL YOU CAN EAT VEGETABLES, AND VEGETABLES ONLY

I've never looked forward to eating veges THIS much, ever in my life. We were so excited to tuck in early the night before just so we could indulge and feast on our vege broth we prepared the night prior. 

Vege broth that lasted us the entire day : cabbage + carrots + tomatoes + onions + mushrooms. 

DAY 3: ALL YOU CAN EAT FRUITS & VEGETABLES! 

By today, you'll be almost back to normal. Your body would have been so used to the amount of fruits and vegetables you've had for the past two days. So, the third day would be peanuts for ya! Just try to stay away from temptations. Afterall, a burger would still taste million times better than ... broccolis? 

Technically, you're not supposed to consume starchy vegetables such as corn, potatoes, green peas and yams , so try avoiding those. But according to the diet plan which we were referring to, we're allowed to have one potatoes each. So we had TWO! (oh, happiest day of my life). Instead of boiling it in our soup, we decided to bake our own fries! Absolutely no oil, no butter, just 2 potatoes and sprinkle some sea salt and stuff it into the 400degrees hot oven! (refer to Nat's Blog for more pictures). 

Sauteed mushrooms that Nat made was super yummy! Didn't know it was that easy.

B-R-O-C-C-O-L-I-S!!

Baked some homemade fries with NO OIL, just two potatoes and some sea salt! TOTAL WIN! 

Sauteed mushrooms! 

DAY 4: BANANAS AND MILK ONLY 

Technically, only 6 bananas that will last you the entire day. Sounds difficult, but I got through it like a breeze! I was surprised myself! I reckon its because the amount of energy that one banana gives, so with 6 bananas, you'll easily get through the day without constantly feeling hungry. 

I wouldn't say I'm lactose intolerant, but I can't take milk. I just cant. God knows how I got through my childhood; the thought of it gives me goosebumps, HAHA. But hey, there's always a way around things. My alternative was SOY MILK! So, 6 bananas and a bottle of organic soymilk kept me going strong! I could even run for 30 minutes that day. Seriously, I was on my best form! Never felt so good. 

DAY 5: STEAK DAY! 

By the 5th day, I've already lost a total of 3kgs. And the feeling of tasting meat again.. was beyond words! My 10 ounces of juicy Australian Tenderloin just perfected my day. Oh speaking of which, if you haven't been to Las Vacas - you really should try it out. Oh, you're welcome ;) 

That wraps up by 5 intensive days of GM Diet! Even though Nat resumed her regular diet, I continued on with my 6th and 7th day. Since it already gave me a kickstart, I might as well follow up and fully commit to it, no? After all, NO PAIN NO GAIN! Basically the 6th day involves "UNLIMITED MEAT AND UNLIMITED VEGGIES" and on the 7th day, you're finally allowed to consume 1 bowl of brown rice, unlimited veggies and fruits. Ahh, carbs.. how I've missed you! 

If you want to continue to lose weight, try not to eat too much carbs on the consecutive days. You might put on some unnecessary weight which you might not see coming. So keep eating clean and hydrate yourself with lots of water! I'm starting my day with a fruit (usually an apple or a pear) and gallons of water every morning!

Here's my take on my GM Diet experience, 

1) You Will Need A Diet Buddy : I kid you not when I say it's tough, especially on the first day. When your body is adapting to the whole 'clean eating' and it's done rather drastically because you're only allowed to consume fruits, and fruits only, having a buddy with you will allow you to motivate each other. Honestly I wouldn't have been able to get through it with Natalia. 

2) You Need To Be Mentally Prepared : Yes, mentally prepared. I know it sounds tempting to attempt when I say I lost 3kgs by my 5th day. I would too if I see someone lose that much weight within such a short span of time. But friend, it's a crash diet.. meaning to say, the faster you lose, the faster you gain. So, if you're gonna do it just for the sake of doing it, I reckon you don't do it at all. Because, if you're going to start feasting again as soon as your diet ends, you'll probably gain even more than you initially started. It took me a week of preparation prior to starting this diet. I told myself I will need to start eating clean 'gradually', so my body wouldn't dysfunction during my diet. So yes, alot of mental preparation required. Meditation did help me too! 

3) Your Energy Level Might Fluctuate : Let's not state the obvious. The lesser you eat, the lesser your body processes, the lesser energy you'll get. Simple science, no? :) I was a total weakling during my first two days of the diet. But by the third day, I was pretty much back to normal and even went for a run. And on my fourth day,  I was on my best form! 

4) You Can't Cheat, Not Even A Cookie : If you're gonna eat, might as well NOT do it. If you're going to stick to this diet, make sure you still till the END of it! Yes, one cookie and the chain is broken. So, don't cheat! ;) 

5) It's A Detox/Weight Loss Diet : Why so? If you realize, there is absolutely no carbs throughout the diet (except for that one potato on your third day), plus the amount of fruits and vegetables that you'll be consuming really does give your body a good detox/cleanse. 

6) Keep Yourself Hydrated! : Need I say more? H20 is gonna be your best buddy throughout the diet! Drink up! We drank lots of water and tea everyday. Absolutely NO sugary drinks. Keep that in mind :) 

"IT'S 70% DIET, 30% EXERCISE" 

I think we've heard enough of that. So, practice what you preach! Yes, dieting helps but working out will increase your metabolism and by keeping yourself active, you're doing your body your favor too! If your body has been hibernating for a while, getting back on it might be difficult but you can always start slow. Go for jogs in the evening, or perhaps a dip in the pool? 

Found this article online and found it really beneficial if you're looking to lose/gain/maintain your weight. I remember my personal trainer telling me that if you want to lose weight, go for the weights! It will allow a gradual weight loss in the longer run, while cardio exercises are merely burning your calories temporarily. I'll elaborate more on that in a later post! Just refer to this chart for now. Hope it helps! 

Planking can be fun too! #justforlaughs 

Sweat buckets during my weekly Badminton session. 

Don't mind my sweaty hands! (trying to prove how much I was sweating).  Look at those pores, they were outta control! 

Working my lower abs with my fav medicine ball. 

"Remember, fitness is a lifestyle, it's a process. You might not see your desired results overnight, but if you stick to the plan and keep your eyes on the prize.. it will be well worth the fight!" - says Maggy Wang! 

I have received a lot of feedback and queries regarding this GM Diet. And yes, to those who asked if I'm doing Round Two.. I AM GOING TO! And if you want to join me, feel free to follow me on Instagram and my Facebook  ; dont hesitate to tag me if you have any questions and if you want to share with me your fitness progress, I would be more than happy to see it! If you have twitter, tweet me at @magdelinewang! 

I haven't reached my target weight just yet, but I will keep pushing until I do! In the meantime, follow me on my journey to a fitter and better me! #movewithmaggy will ya? 

Love, 

Maggy. 

Almost Lover

I don't usually get very personal when it comes to my public posts. And, I don't really intend to. But today, something.. somehow just triggered my emotions and I am going to tell you a story. 

A love story. 

But before I proceed further, remember these two names; Alaric and Mia. 

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Mia, known for her bubbly personality; has always been the people person. She's the heart of every party that she goes to. She warms up to people so quickly, so easily, so naturally.. conversations with her can hardly ever get awkward, because she's simply so nice to converse with! And when she listens, she does it with all her heart. She's a simple girl, easily amused, can get pretty gullible at times.. but she has a good heart. 

And like any other girl, she longs for her prince charming, her knight in shining armor.. or whatever else you call it. Not that she's on a hunt or anything, she just secretly wishes that someday, The One would come knocking on her door. Yes, if you're trying figure out if she's a hopeless romantic? I'm gonna give you a yes. A big fat YES! 

"If I ever find my my other half again, I'll love him with all my life, my all. I'd shower him with my affection, my love, and I'll love him like no other. And if he ever walks into my life.. I would know. But I'm curious; how would he look like? Would he be like the many other guys I've dated before? Ew, no please. Some were douches, and I'm allergic to douches. No, he won't be, I know. It will all be right, in His timing. It will all be right". 

So, one day.. Alaric came into the picture (he just popped out of nowhere, like a mushroom! yes, mushroom!). Well, he wasn't the kind of guy that you would notice at your first glance. But funny enough, he was what Mia had always wished for. In fact, almost close to perfect if you must ask. How on Earth is that even possible?! Yes, he's Chinese ( great, her parents would love him), he speaks perfect English ( thank God, she'll never be able to handle a ching-chong-bing-bong), he's pretty damn well-built ( oh, Mia is a total sucker for men who works out, especially if you're those with nice arms and 6-pack abs. oh, that's a done deal hunny!) ; I don't want to sound like a shallow bitch, but let's just admit it.. who wouldn't swoon over a nice body?! I TOTALLY WOULD AND I'M NOT GOING TO DENY THAT. Also, he speaks perfect French and nope I'm not even done yet.. he's a Harvard graduate ( ok, stop!).   

"Okay, this can't be true. Sounds too good to be true. How can he seem so perfect? No, God.. you're scaring me.. I asked for a good man. You gave me a perfect one." 

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(I'm speaking as Mia.) 

There was this one day, he asked me out. This is going to be my second time meeting him. And IT'S A DATE! Oh my Lord, my heart raced and I didn't know how to respond. I don't remember how it was like to be on a date. It felt like eons of years ago. I've never really dressed up for dates when I was with my ex ; I mean.. everything was so casual then. But I didn't want this date to be casual. Alaric seems so special. "Okay, I'm going to look my best", I told myself. I ransacked my entire wardrobe, found the perfect bareback dress, did my hair and some make-up and I left. I made sure I smelt like my favourite Acqua di Gioia essenza. I was never really the kind of girl who cares about .. handcreams. But that night, I just felt like I needed everything to be perfect. Because.. he was. 

I switched between my ballerina flats and my heels a couple of times. I hate being this tall sometimes. "If only he was taller", I thought to myself. Ugh, perfection is overrated. 

"Just be yourself, Mia." 

"Don't impress too much. You don't know him that well."

"Don't have to give him your best, he does not deserve it, not yet". 

I just.. over-freaking-think sometimes. No, most of the time. 

We were supposed to meet at 8.30pm. It was 8.25pm and my heart started to race, I think it popped. I went to the ladies several times, just to make sure I looked alright.. if not my best. And when the minute-hand reached the 30th minute, my phone rang. 

*ALARIC CALLING* 

Well, of course I picked it up! I've waited all week to see this guy. ALL WEEK! Feels like forever, I swear. But I didn't want to seem like I was too eager. I let it ring for another 2 (and a half) times, before giving my best "Hey!". 

The moment I saw him, my heart dropped. Honestly, he wasn't the best looking guy in town, but his personality just shines through and there's so much goodness in him that it's hard not to love. He has this megawatt smile that would just melt your heart, almost instantaneously. At least it did, to me. And the funniest part about him is when he laughs.. you can't see his eyes. Uhm, Chinese.. but.. such a cutie.

So, yes. We went to this French restaurant; and that was when I heard him speak French for the first time. Mind you, it was perfect French. PLUS FREAKING POINT! Apparently, he lived in France for 3 years before moving back here. Interesting.. this guy travels. And I love a guy who travels. He can story me his adventures, because ... I love stories. I'd have bedtime stories supply that would last a lifetime!

The food was great, but my company that night was the best, ever. I don't remember too much details from that night; but I sure won't forget this. 

(in the midst of our conversation)

Alaric : Mia, could you please do me a favor? 

Mia     : uhm.. yes?

Alaric  : Could you stop smiling like that? 

Mia     : Huh? (I swear, I thought something was stucked in between my teeth) 

Alaric   : No, not that. Your smile is too sweet, its distracting me. 

I blushed. And I don't remember myself 'blushing' like that for a long time! He was amazing, and I'll never forget that. From then on, things just kept on going and we saw each other almost every other week. Alaric, well.. he's quite a workaholic. Being the workaholic that he is.. he travels quite abit too. So, we only saw each other whenever he's back in town. "Distance makes the heart grow fonder" - I guess it's true. And what I loved most about him, was his heart of Gold. He was such a giver; and he made me realize that chivalry isn't dead. He was the perfect gentleman. And we always had so much to talk about; so much so that we would talk until either one of us falls asleep. 

Everything seemed fine, until one day.. when I realized something wasn't right. I just didn't feel right. He was distancing himself; and I didn't understand why. Just when I thought things were going fine. I wanted to know what went wrong. I was broken when I finally realized that.. things would never work out between us. I was shattered. I was broken. I was disappointed. I was furious. I was everything. He was my everything. Or least I thought so. Emotions were all over the place. 

But it was a tad too late. I've already fallen into the 'black hole'. I was in love with him. And there.. was no turning back. I had to deal with my emotions. It was all over the place, I remembered. But I just had to pick myself back up. I mean.. what other choice do I have? I had no choice. He just vanished into thin air.. just like that. I knew the problem wasn't with me; and he told me too. 

Well I guess.. 

"I wish I knew you earlier, Mia. I really really wish I did". 

But you didn't. Too bad for you Alaric. You were amazing, we had a great time, but I should've known you'll bring me heartache. I guess, our love will have to wait another lifetime. I know LOVE is a strong word, but I loved you. I was ready to love you.. I was ready to give you my all.. my time, my care, my affection, my everything. But... there's always a 'but' hey? Well, wherever you are right now.. whichever part of the globe.. I wish you well. And perhaps, we'll meet again in another lifetime.. hopefully 'in time' to catch each other again. 

Farewell for now, my almost lover. I'll try not to think about you :) 

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It's 3.45am now, I shall head to bed. But writing this 'love story' tore open my heart once again, and the song.. just enhances the whole mellowness in me. HAHA. I love doing this to myself, I'm insane. Just one of those nights where I just needed to pour my heart out. Truth be told, I'm not a very brilliant writer; I suck at executing my ideas into words, but I try. And I tried :) I hope you liked both my characters, Alaric and Mia.

Why do you think Alaric did that? I'm pretty sure Mia would love to know. I'm pondering myself too. It could've been such a wonderful love story. Could've been.