where's LOVE ?

dont talk to me :(

it hurts.

im lonesome tonight :')



where's LOVE?

had some sorta mental breakdown last nite.
it was hard.damn.
shower didnt help though.
all i did was just staring at my fan.
spinning and spinning.and there it goes...
i was near to death.
haha.

i seriously dont knw what to do.
listening to "What Hurts the Most".
gosh.
oh dear.life's hard.
not knowing what u want.
being so envy of others who're so perfect in life.

im trying to be better.i REALLY am.
im on my way.
its hard.
i miss mum.
*cry*

steph's gonna leave me next year.
to a place showered with love.love.love.
with mum and dad and everyone.
and ME??
im gonna stay here till SPM ends.

life without steph?
i dont know.im used to sleeping with her every night.
im used to talk to her b4 i sleep.
gosh.nobody cares.about me.
it hurts.
at least i care for myself.
but whats the point??
i may seem cool with stuffs.u might see me smile.
but it isn't the real me.
where's LOVE??
i love my friends.
kim,yeankit,eva,sueli,diana,suiee and all.
but..
i dont know.


i want to be strong.
stand up.and go on with life.
fyi, i blog to feel better.
not to show people how great i am.nor how bad i am.


seriously,
i dont know what to say.
im depressed :(

thanks dad but..

well,apparently my dad got me smthg that i seriously wanted since (i dont knw when).haha.
my superCUN camera.lol.
not those you see all the time when girls are cam-whoring around though.
its D8O! god.haha.
deep down in myself,i seriously want to pursue photographing but erm.IMPOSSIBLE i guess.haha.
and im super super excited about it.rofl.
i ain't showing off but just expressing my excitement.HAHA.

ohya.and im obviously a 'cina buta' person and dad had some sorta idea to make me 'cina celik'.haha.
and so, he got me chinese electronic dictionary.
at first i was over the moon when i saw him holding a converse bag.i was wondering which latest design he bought me but..FORGET IT MAG.
it was the chinese dictionary.
maybe dad thinks i'll be happy and so,i 'pretended' to be.
sorry dad. its kinda lame.
i dont even knw how to switch it on.its ALL IN CHINESE.
gosh. thanks anyway dad.

and a pocketPC.i got all the 3 stuffs on a day :))))

going on to the nxt thing.
well,i sorta think paris hilton is admirable though.

1) she's hot
2) she doesn't care what people around talk about her. (if ppl dislikes her,why would they care to talk about her?)
3) well, i personally thinks that she makes us all,we girls proud. (i did not include the case when she gt jailed)
come on,look on the positive sides.haha.
yea,im crapping.

IF YOU'RE GONNA LISTEN TO WHAT EVERYONE SAYS,YOU'RE GONNA BE FOREVER UNHAPPY.

:)

haha.

suzhou is funny.seriously.lmao.
erm,he was blogging and i was (well,watching him) until i got fed-up that he can really crap.check out his blog.haha.

there's this time when he typed

sleeping beauty used to be my girl friend and we got a daughter..

and i was like we had a daughter lah!!!!

and it goes on and on.on and off correcting him.haha.

he kept smiling ;)

okay.i didnt mean that my english is supergood like some ppl but,i was just being nice.to a friend.lol.

exam sucks.seriously.

alright, study time ;)

XOXO

exam fever *sweats

sejarah.i like it but..argh.
sejarah sucks.its stereotype.ppl hates it.islamic stuffies that i just dont understand the point of learning it.khalifahs??
haha.
attn ppl.there's this fella with the name FUCK.haha.Fakhr al-Din.LOL.
well,actually i like sejarah but not this time.imma donkey!darn.

gtg.bye.

darn.wtf.

darn!
exams r frigging way near.even faster than i thought.lol.
and ours is like on the SEVENTH!damn it.
and all i did was flipping thru the pages.(thats some sorta improvement,mag) LOL.
the "best thing" about exam this time is..it ends on the TWENTY FOURTH!
let see..hmm..wtf.gila punya arrangement.haha.
forget bout that.grr.

mdm jeya told us smthg the otha day during class.lol.once,her sister met something in the toilet while she was doing her business.rofl.and guess what that thingy was?
BIAWAK!!!(i forgot what its called in english.oops)
it wasn't crawling around neither was it hiding at the corner of the toilet.it was popping its freaking ugly head OUTTA THE TOILET BOWL!!!!!!!!arhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..
haha.imagine you're the one sitting on the bowl.lol.the screaming made the whole rescue team of mdm jeya to go for the rescue.haha.
and this story had made me 'toiletbowlphobia'.haha.erm,is thr such a word?? LOL!
anyway,careful people :)

hmm..holiday's comin.
im so gonna stay home and study.study.study and STUDY!
haha.nah.i dont think i will.

ohya.btw,edward cullen is HOT! wey.furhh..
so irresistable.haha.

gone for good ;)

dilemma

hmm..life is so friggin BORED.

I need mum *cry*

:)

kim tagged mag ;)

1. The last person to tag you is?
Kim

2. Your relationship with him/her ?
you wouldn't wanna know.haha.

3. Your 5 impression towards him/her ?
quiet.the girl with the lost puppy eyes.smart.DBSK's superfans.pretty!

4. The most memorable thing that he/she has ever done for you ?
hmm..kimmie??well,she edited my blog.thanks!!=)))

5. The most memorable words that he/she spoke to you ?
*hits me hard* sei pat po!

6. If he/she becomes your lover, you will...
look for my tomb!

7. If he/she becomes your enemy, you will..
(nah,it wouldn't happen) ;)

?8. If he/she becomes your lover, he/she has to improve on...
smiling more??

9. If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason is...
she just cant help to stop calling me sei pat po!haha.

10. The most desirable things to do for him/her is...
calling her kambing.lol.

11. Overall impression towards him/her is...
no idea.

12. How do you think the people around you will feel about you ?
i dont bother much.

13. The character for you for yourself is ?
slow + blurr.

14. On contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
i have sleeping disorder!haha.

15. The most ideal person you want to be is?
ME! ;)

16. For the person who cares and likes you, say something about him/her.
thanks alot sweetie :)

17. Ten people to tag.
1. suzhou 2.Kim ;) 3.sueli 4. payleng 5. jane 6. eva 7. nikhita 8.chisan 9.hooi gee 10. qian wei

18. Who is number 2 having a relationship with ?
kim??changmin??haha.

19. Is 3 a male or a female ?
female

20. If number 7 and 10 got together, would that be a good thing ?
nikitha and qian wei?? hmm....

21. How about 5 and 8 ? chisan and jane??
haha.dont think they knw each otha.=P

22. What is number 1 studying about ?
whatever a form4 science student studies.lol.

23. When was the last time you had a chat with them ?
whenever i see them??

24. Is number 4 single ?
payleng is taken =)

25. Say something about number 2.
kim is kim. LOL.

chocolates..the transfomer?

gosh.its been ages go since i posted a blog.aha.(thats what i said the last time i posted one)
like i said..im just inactive.haha.
life without teevee.without streamyx.without my notebook.
its HELL! seriously.

lets get back to the chocolate issue.haha.
we're talking bout BlOODTYPES in class and somehow i couldn't rmb mine.haha.
CLICK!ohya,mine's A- which is rare.haha.i might consider to have a blood bank fer myself.
well,incase i need it one day.LOL.
all of a sudden,itu becky asked..

becky: mag,why dont u try eat more chocolates?its good.
mag : huh?why?my A- will become A+ ahh?hey.thats good.
becky: AIYO!
jane and sueli: HAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA
mag : (blurr as usual) what??

haha.berdasarkan kejadian di atas.kesimpulannya,mag sememangnya tidak layak menjadi seorang pelajar aliran sains.
laughs.
well.that A+ thingy wasn't on purpose.
fyi.it happened weeks already but (like i said) im in active.so im always the SNAIL.haha.

gosh.
times up.
i gtg. (not again?!!)
haha.
check me out some other time. =P
btw,i dont know hw to link ppl.i know its lame.any help?
haha.
im off.